Year Ending.

 2011 has just about passed like a whirlwind, for me. Lots of emotional sorting , silence and growth. This year started really rough. Some of which was not posted here. I didn't know how to write it ,so I let it go and let it lay. Sometimes its for the best.

A few days ago I ran in to an old friend. Who lost his wife due to Breast Cancer. He was really supportive of me . He asked me to tell him my story....because though he listened to me many times. He was preoccupied with his wife and kids.  I sent him an email and he found our phone number. He stated he never realized some of what I went through....Simply because I really do not complain about it.. I had to smile. I do but its a private and personal battle at times. I often think to...who likes to hear others complain. We have the right to I guess. Its simply not who I am.

I often think each person caregiver or survivor has their own scars. Due to the battles fought. Some think the scars are ugly and should be never spoken about. I for one don't agree. Scars should be seen, they tell a story that we cared for others.  Scars show we did overcome something. They are often caused my trauma and pain.

I also think to....I need to share this. Some of us are lucky and make it. As I have told others its a gift but its laced with many health issues. Its a blessing and at times a curse. Due to the long term issues of treatment it really is tough at times. Your cancer is in remission...its a wonderful thing. NOT a cure. Your here and dealing with long term effects, because you made choices to do aggressive treatments. You have pushed all the buttons...to have no evidence of a disease you hate. You end up paying in the long run...Sometimes the complications are life changing and altering. Its hard  because your scars re open  and the pain comes back to the surface.I can't even tell you what some deal with emotionally and mentally. Its almost worse then the physical part of it, at times.

Scars say we won a battle....They speak volumes. Our stories, yours and mine are powerful. May we always remember how powerful we are and our stories.


If I encouraged one person...then I did my job this year.

Bring it on 2012!!

Wishing you holiday blessings.