Outta The Mouths Of Babes.

I don't even know where to begin today. This one of those from the heart posts. When I was first told I had cancer my children were ages eleven , thirteen and fifteen. I was trying to get over the hump of trying to deal with my feelings about it all. My Husbands. Then that of each child's thoughts and having to to talk about cancer with them. I look back and think every single time that it was one of the hardest things to have to tell our kids.
Honesty for the ages they were was the best thing.
Today something happened that made me take a step back. Because I have had biopsies on face neck and around the collar bone area. Some of my scars are visible. Very much so. I have come to know each one tells part of my story. Its one that needs sharing.
Today my little Granddaughter who will soon be three. Took her tiny hand and traced the scar on my neck with her little finger. She pointed and said *What's this?* My only thought was a boo boo.So that is what I said.
In an instant thats all I could think of is one day I will have to talk to her to about my cancer. I had the biggest lump in my throat.
I thought that boo boo and stating the doctor fixed it was enough. Nope. I could see her concern and the wheels turning in her tiny head. Later it was *Grammie, me kiss and make it all better!* So sweet so innocent, of course*Kiss and make it all better* How could you no feel better with kind love around you.
How much is to much when they are three??? I was thinking back to when my kids were three or a little older and my Grandfather had cancer. I don't think I told much more but I was honest and direct in how I said it. As they grew up they knew what it meant that some lifed after cancer but Great Grandpa died of it. Hard for them to wrap their heads around that.
The experience with my own Children makes me know I handle it the right way as well.Laying the stones of truth is so important.

Today came to soon. Much sooner then I ever thought. Hopefully my cancer stays stable for a long time. Simply because as much as I want to be honest with her it breaks my heart just thinking about it that she will have to know more one day.

I am still in awe of this Little One. Amazing grace in action.

*The gift is in the willingness.*~Mary Oliver.

I so love doing day care with my Granddaughter. Sometimes I just sit and observe her and there is nothing like the love of a grandchild. You think you know but your really don't till experience it.
I watch her and her unconditional love for others and her willingness to share with everyone around her. It doesn't matter the time or the season she is willing to make others around her happy. Truly the little ones lead us and teach us.
I was thinking today to that we all worry so much about the Christmas Season. We are all caught up in things and what needs doing. When it involves those we love and those who know us the best. So why all the fuss??
This year I am tired and dealing with some unexpected things.Things are tight. So it will be a year of just enjoying others doing what I love and being together. Time spent the most precious gift given today . Our time.
Today as I sat on the floor with my Granddaughter,her tattered singing angel that reaks of lavender and to have rainbow tea. I began thinking this is what the gift of Christmas is about.
Wishing you all blessings.

Making today a very quiet day. Still not up to par.

Wishing you blessings.

Gratitude

Read this and just wanted to share it today.


PRAISE FOR THE DAY

"For a canvas of colors, for a concert of sound,
For the unfolding seasons, the earth spinning 'round,
For the birth of each sunrise, for the sky set ablaze,
For the lessons we learn, from the trials we face;
To the Giver of blessings for all our days,
For all of these gifts, we give: Simple Praise."
--Simple Praise by Craig Courtney and Pamela Martin

RIP Jenn

Sometimes via blogs and different media...you come across a person that's life graces us. When I first started this blog I received several comments from Jen.
Her story was of a another *Mom with Cancer* Her story touched many not only in the cancer community but many who were just touched by her love of her Sons as a single mom.
What touched me so deeply about Jen there was a automatic connection due to cancer. But it went beyond that. I received several emails since reading her blog she was amazing. So much life within the emails. So many things to share.
My prayers and thoughts today go out to her Boys and David. As well as all her family and friends.
RIP Jen. You have earned your wings..Now soar!

Sharing !

I woke up feeling really cruddy this morning. Sore throat, congested and a really nasty headache. Then the dreaded ear pressure.I never had a ear issue until after radiation and since then. No matter what happens with in my head. The ears are a issue.Oh and gotta love the chills!!I was hoping as the day went on like yesterday I would feel some better. Not happening...I still feel like crud. Luckily I do have the medication for all of it so we will see how it goes.
Looks like I am sharing with my Husband...who started this a week ago. He is on his way back in for a Blood Pressure recheck and medication adjustment on Wednesday.
So I am hoping we are both on the mend and on a upswing in a few days.
One bit of perspective...so far no asthma issue. I hope I am getting it prior to that happening..Plus doing all my preventatives. Hoping we are okay.
More when I can. I am back to the couch to rest.

Stay well everyone.
Wishing you blessings.

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Hopefully on the weekend I will have more time to adjust things.

Happy Thanksgiving

"I will always trust in you and in your mercy and shall rejoice in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord because He has blessed me so richly." (Psalms 13: 5-6)

Wishing you blessings on this day.

Timing

One thing learned early in life is to be yourself because everyone else is taken.
Growing up with 4 sisters, was never boring. However when we ere young we all had the same style of shoes and when there was a sale. So many things were the same. Or similar. Till were teens.
I also remember going to the local private Catholic school. Wearing the same plaid uniforms, blouses and oh my world those darn ugly knee highs in green!
Then it happened when I was sixth grade...Vatican Two and a really mean nun. My parents couldn't live with it.
So as fast as we went to Catholic school we were sent the local public school. I was ecstatic. I really remember thinking no more uniform!! I was so excited about being an individual. Not a cookie cutter image of someone else. As fast as I entered the seventh grade. I was happy. My sister suffered culture shock more then she could handle. She was older by a few years and I know that was a hard move for her.
As I went though school I remember being quiet and shy. But I was transformed by the time high school ended.
That year I went to work in a local office supply store and went to night school. I think that was one of my most defining years of my life. There was so much growth.
Little did I know a year later. I would meet my husband.
By that point I was beginning to realize that I liked who I was and that so many things were falling in to place for me. I was a full time student, now working nights. And just really enjoying life. Confident.
Its amazing to me my life was really about to change that year. For the better.
Sometimes you just know your in the right place at the right time. I was. He was.
The side of a riverbed..in the winter sunshine with a camera.
To be blessed with that one person. Its truly a blessing some don't ever have. I do and for that I am so grateful.
Today I am grateful for my Husband,my best friend. I truly believe it was God's prefect timing.

Wishing you blessings.

What Are You Thankful For?

Thanksgiving is coming up coming up fast. I find myself reflecting on all blessings big and small that God has provided us with. I am listing a few...and maybe you will think about it and do the same.

* Medical Miracles. My being here as well as those in my family who are as well.
* Our American Dream. One could say the American Dream but I chose to say our
or dream. All the big and small blessings we have daily.
* Lasting Love. Being married to my best friend Roy,31years later I wouldn't change
much.
* Having a family home. Filled with family and friends. Being able to hang on to it
during these hard financial times. As well as food to eat on our table.
* Time with my Granddaughter. Such a blessing.
* Four Generations in one place for the day. Amazing.
* Being in touch with Family who might live in another state. Those who can't be
with us but certainly are dear to us.

Now its your turn. Think about it. What are the best things in your life? Has something good happened in your life recently? Your family, or grandchild?

Tell us what your thankful for. Then pass it on.

Wishing you blessings.